A good week :)

Went to JBP on Wednesday with BB. She took off, i took off too. Not the airplane kind of take off. Haha.. we took offs from work lah :D

A very nice and relaxing day well-spent with dear. Poor baby had a birdie bite from a little parrot. Or was it a budgie? How do you spell it.. haha..

Today we went shopping for my dress for this coming weekend's friends' wedding. 2 in a row.. geez... going to be tiring i guess.. hehe.

dear bought me a maple story prepaid card today... silly baby :) thanks so much anyway darling... i love surprises from you.... appreciate the thoughtfulness.... :)

but we must save money ok? must save up for our future... realised tat we are quite financially away from owning our own little space... i dun know whether it will be to daring to say hope for it to be realised within 5 yrs time... to save enough by then... yeah.. work hard while we are still young so tat we can enjoy together for the rest of our lives!

nothing is impossible... as long as you have faith and work towards it... love you.... love you so much...

finally... a line to end off today's post:

Love is, even when your other half takes you for granted, you still love her wholeheartedly.

After all, true love is unconditional. Asking for nothing in return.

Disclaimer for above: Not necessarily referring to me!

MY home sweet home

My baby going to work tomorrow.... :(

Baby... sayang... love you for sounding so cheerful even though u seemed sianz at first... love you for tat dear. i can let you beat beat, pinch pinch or bite bite... as long as you are happy and smiling.

went marketing together just now.... still loving it.... when can we shopshop for our own home? *soon*

can't seem to get my eyes or hands off you.. haiz... there is just something in you that appeals to me this much... some unique electricity you sent out. i want you for myself u know? if only everyday can go home together... cook together... blah blah....

ok... dream on for the moment... till i save enough! praying for it to come soon...

我的恋爱心情

Shopping in the noon~

Passed by a vcd shop during lunch time today, and then *Tink TInk TINk TINK!!!!!*

Should do some stocking up for my mini staying-in this weekend! Hehe.. oops... I've not been invited yet wor! ;p

Bought 6 VCDs at one go. Quite ex... costs $50+ in all. Took quite a long time browsing through the huge laserflair. Was picking shows which i've loved or like but failed to catch, thus the detailed search in the store.

Still lacking of one movie title which is on the top of my mind.

"Love Me If You Dare" - splendid show which i watched a few years back. Beautiful ending and bitter sweet happenings in between. Some might find the ending tragic, but to me it's beautiful. The unknown is up to you. A optimist would perceive it as a happily ever after, but to a pessimist, it will be a tragic ending. Oh i love this end of ending. Not that i'm a borned optimist. But i choose to believe in the better story. After all, nobody looks forward to the darker side right?

If you believe, you will conquer.

Anyway, back to my afternoon story, so after i ransacked the whole store, found a few french titles, but they are not what i want. And the worst thing was, the title had slipped my mind at that moment. how zun!

I went up to the sales girl and asked,
"Do you have a disc by the movie title of "To Love Or Not To Love"?

"Clicky clacket click clack"

"No"

"Ok thanks..."

I wonder how she would felt if i go back again tomorrow and ask,
"Do you have a disc by the movie title of "Love Me If You Dare"?

God it sounds like a ultra pathetic pick up line!

*SLAPS*

Haha... anyway will try to get my hands on that disc. Poh Kim and TS not much hope. They sell mostly chinese stuff. AHA... probably HMV! But tat's like a thousand miles away from my office/home...

Anyway... shoulder aching again... gotta go sleep.... on my dear's ai xin pillow le!

Both my bosses won't be around tomorrow... hahhahaazz!!!

Smile

We smiled, and is smiling now again :)

Oohh... my nose is bleeding... too dry le... drink too little water..
Baby drink more water too, so tat your lips aren't so dry and wound will heal smoother.

What went wrong?

Just came back from mother's day celebration from ah ma's house.
happy dinner. noisier and livelier with one of my jovial uncle around.

in the noon, went to fetch them at this temple near my primary school. very peaceful environment and very inspiring looking buddha statues there also.

one day, when i'm all alone, there is a good place to be.

brought them out for a bah kut teh lunch today @ balestier after tat.
they are happy, i'm happy too :)
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Baby has turned cold and hostile towards me.........

What happened?
No reply... no reply... no reply...

Wanna play minesweeper?
No reply... no reply... no reply...

Wait wait wait...
Wonder wonder wonder...
Worried worried worried...

The worst thing is to worry about something which you dunno abt. tat sucks. big time.
What did i do wrong? Dun understand what is it tat you cannot tell me straight in the face?

You know i really dislike it when you suddenly turned mum and refuse to tell me what happened. The wild thoughts in my mind can only get from bad to worse. I really dunno what i did to make this all happen. Can only wait and wait and wait till no definite time. Do you know the feeling?

I want to smile. I want you to smile. I want to be able to smile together with you.

Waiting for your favourable reply....

Doll-y and Ros-ie

What a pity to miss this...

As they have put it,
"We're just two people who loves each other"
"G ay love is no different from straight love."

We just want the best of each other, no different from all other pple.
Just that our society is too narrow minded, too inflexible.

M + F = M + M = F + F
The only difference is the ability to produce a biological baby.
Other than that, it's the same, get it?

Nonetheless our lives goes on, with or without social acceptance.
Live the life the way you want it.

Live it with no regrets. Not that social acceptance is a woahwoah big big big big deal.

Life goes on. I'll still continue loving my girl, my pigpig :)

Yes it will be like this forever, my hand holding yours, sheltering you from harm always.

a beautiful post-wisdom-tooth-post-vesak-day saturday

slept at 4plus am just now, cos was reading up stuff on braces, recommended actions after tooth extraction and his and his blog. Their photos and mushy stuff kept me awake all night. Pretty cool pictures and they sure are photogenic! Came across a chic blog of hers too! Witty was of writing, ever entertaining, ALOT of pictures. These are fantastic blog to digest i tell you!

Why do i keep reading about Australia and coming across pics of that place??!! Awwwww man....

So i woke up at 11am... and checked on my brave baby to make sure she's alright. After which i got whisked to help out in a family project, to fix up the a holder in the bathroom.

My babe got 2 bloody wisdom out yesterday. Poor dear. She suddenly sms me telling me she's going in for the surgery. I secretly quickly rushed down, hopefully to attend to her needs when she comes out.

Anyway when i just reached i spotted her car at the multistorey carpark. I put her one of her wipers to machiam to indicate "Your Porkpork Was Here". I was afraid that the most impossible things might happen, something like the show "Turn left turn right". Sekali once i reached the clinic, she just left and somemore walk to opposite direction as me how, then she won't know that i've been there. Hence the wiper prank. She'll understand :)

When i reached the clinic, kept wondering why it took her so long. Did my dear lose too much blood?? Did they give her too much anasthetic? Were there complications in the surgery? Did she leave the clinic already?

She looked kinda pale and frailed when i first saw her, tat was 2 hours after she went in. Probably cold and traumatised? Anyway that was the sort of look which melted my heart no matter what. Sigh. Was at a loss to see her seemingly uncomfortable and with groggy eyes like she just woke up. I think the tears in my eyes were threatening to gush out and then to run to hug her. Was that tears in her eyes too when she first saw me in the clinic? Or an expression of horror? "Gaah why did she have to come and see me and my bun face??!"

:D

Msged baby wishing her a speedy recovery and that swelling won't take place since she doesn not feel much pain now. She replied unless i give her kiss kiss if not it will swell. Hehehe.. surprise demand!!

So i suggested to buy her dinner, but she declined. She said she'll accompany me eat, and after that we can go shopping for mum's pressies instead. I was quite hesistant, cos scare she won't be comfortable enough to go shopping. What if the wound aches? Walking might make it worse. But i really wanted to see her, and since dear has already suggested it, it won't be nice if i appear popomama. So there i go to fetch my BABY!

Still so ever yummy, and the little bao at her cheek induced the little tinge of protectiveness of her in me == love her more now :P

Initially i have no intentions to eat, cos it's not nice to have her drooling over what i'm eating. Hehe.. ok i'm exaggerating, my baby is not the sort to drool when watching pple eat, she only drools when giving me kisses, ah oopps! no lah... joking.. haha... lame joke... haha... wth!

While driving to the shopping centre, she put her hand on my lap and tugged at my berms (hmmm i like that :p), and with the little bun in her mouth, my baby requested to go to mos burger. Hey i like my babe to bring up requests. Think i have this SM streak in me, i like to be 'commanded' by her... haha.

The request came as a pleasant surprise to me. My darling connects with the yellow corn soup there :) So i had my burger and some sinful fries and she gently down the soup after i finished my meals.

Got my mum driving theory books to refresh her memory! And a forever friends bear to display at her desk!

Gave my sweetheart 3, no 4, no i think 5 gentle pecks before she alighted!

1 on the left cheek
1 on the right cheek (face lah)
1 on the lips
then didn't feel that i've given enough,
1 more on the lips
then i feel like i was too stingy with my lips,
plant 1 more full and gentle one on her lips again.

Alright, satisfied with my performance :)

Get well soon my darling, dun go to work just because you dun like to take mc... if normal pple take 5 day to rest, i think you need the well deserved rest too!

Wait till tuesday see how loh... unless you can perform somersault without feeling the pain liao, if not, no going to work for you!

By the way, my dear says she weighs lighter now without the 2 x wisdom tooth... her weight scale says so.... kua kua kua.............. :DD

polishing and more

dear is extracting her wisdom tooth today, after polishing her teeth :'(

heart pain.... sigh... and face will swell.... and cannot eat solid food...... and made her wait so long somemore.... @^#@*%@#@(

baby...

another meaningful vesak day

Went for the 3 steps 1 bow ritual just now. In my opinion it is a very meaningful activity for oneself, to test your endurance and determination. Nothing is impossible if you have the perseverance. And when you see pple perspiring profusely and still persevere to walk, or some elderly who's limping but yet struggle to kneel down without fail... their determination will certainly touched anyone....

hope to be able to share with darling and bring her here one day to experience all these for herself...

my mum and i kneeled all the way, and papa today is very good. He was with us all the way too, although he didn't kneel, he stand all the way. It's a first for him, and i think it's commendable that he finally have the patience to go through the ritual le. for the past ten over years, if he accompanied us there, he will just wander about the place and wait till we're done.

there are firsts for me too, it's the first time i recite the chant throughout the ritual. It's rather breathless to perform the actions and to sing the chant at the same time. But this year i made it :).

Another thing is the downpour, it's a first for me and mum and dad. It was a heavy rain somemore, our clothes and shoes were all soaked. And hair is machiam like mad dog like tat, dripping with rain water.

Another thing which i tried but did not succeed is to touch the floor with my head each time we kneeled down. Sometimes when we pass by puddles of water or muddy area, err... i didn't do so. Cos when my head touches the wet floor, my hair will be dipped onto the water on the floor, and when i stand up, those water will drip into my face and eyes... painful siah... got sore eyes somemore... but nonetheless... i hope to be able to overcome it next time... i shall improve something each year.

I also donated the $50 from the cabbie le... when i told my mama, she was agreeable also. i think she admire dear's sense of benevolence. see darling, i so good help you score points again! :)

for the event, we queued for 2 hours and the walk took 2 hours...
before i know it, it's been almost ten yrs since we attend this event annually...

yeah dear it's definitely fun :) my knees is only starting to wobble now... hehehe....

gave me a little scare when you seemed to be talking little to me today... i hope everything is fine.... love ya baby......

your hair long le... and your white hair come out le...... sigh.... makes me sad..... although i know it's genetic.... but still whenever i see white hair on you and mama, it will make me very sad.... silly girl.... sigh.

good night night le baby... sweet dreams of anything thing nice!
yesterday i dreamt of my primary school favourite pe cum maths teacher!! We had a good conversation in the dream... nice!

Buang...

Luckily dear was with me last night.

My car 'kissed' a taxi. Suffered a little dent, thank goodness. Dear and me were unhurt, even thank goodness, The argument was a tiresome episode. It doesn't matter who the fault lies with now. At that time i was hope to be at the upper hand and didn't think that i was at fault too.

It's really tiring to argue. The uncle offered to give me $50 and call it a day. Initially i felt that he was just trying to shut me up and end the episode hastily. But then after counselling and advice from dear, i decided to go with it. Thank god for her.

I got consolation from dear's kisses. And my tears feel uncontrollably down. Gee i must be mad. Probably touched ba... by her patience and console. Haiz... well... a lesson learnt for me. And dear has suggested that we donate the $50 since i have no intentions to repair the dent. Good idea... luckily we are unhurt. And felt sorry for the taxi uncle also...

MY sunshine

Went to watch "You Are My Sunshine" with dear yesterday. The guy's strong desire to be with her is the touching part. Especially the last scene where they met inside the prison. We had Ding Tai Fung for lunchie yesterday. The timing was just oddly right, haha. Cos there wasn't a crowd and the dishes came rather promptly, it was about 4 in the noon. Well, late lunch for my baby.

Today she came over to my house for a spot check! To inspect my work-in-progress room... snuggle snuggle.... awfully nice... love the feel skin against skin... love breathing into her shoulders.... :)

Dear gave me a surprise sms just now commenting that she doesn't want a shetland in future anymore. she wans a snowy schnauzer instead. It was our future plan to have a dog, and her choice was a shetland. i have purposely teased her on several occassion that i wan other breeds instead of a shetland, and we always childishly 'bickle' over it. Somehow... her telling me of the plan makes me smile... is that her subtle way of telling me something? *smiles*

Tomorrow is sucky monday again... AGAIN!!! Crap!!!!!! Happy Crappy monday everyone!! Success with killing the blue monster okiez!!!

the book tat made upset

As i was waiting for my car to be serviced, i spent my time at popular bookshop, was browsing a fengshui book on face reading, and they were saying something about mei3 ren2 er2 (forgot wat they call it in proper english), and that they prefer older men and will eventually settle down with someone at least ten yrs older than them. When i read that, i was so freakingly upset i found my tears rolling down... ridiculous right? But it happened.. sigh. the thought of it is so..... i dunno how to explain in words given my limited vocab. Unbearable. even thinking of it now is terrible... silly me went to msg dear about it and she consoled me by saying "this type of book not true one lah".. hehe... and i felt better.... poor dear have to pacify me in spite of her busy work... paiseh....

sigh... i'm really weak am i? i just cannot picture my dear with other pple, if not i'll get very very upset.... :'\ i'm going mad.... is this a sign of possessiveness? or is this normal in a relationship? is this healthy? gee i dunno... i hope my dear doesn't feel breathless..... i just want her to be happy... with me... <-- sounds like a possessive statement??! haha....

love is selfish... pple say that if you love someone, you just want her to be happy no matter who she choose to be with... yes... but it's difficult to practise this..... you need to be a saint, or something close to tat in order to do tat...

the silly fuss i kicked up.... :l

The clouds are cleared, i've cleared my bag of grumbles and doubts. I felt a lack of commitment from her, in the sense that i dun feel like part of her future plans... she has never spoken about our future... be more selfish for me k? Fight for me... well anyway... i hope to know that i'm not in this battle alone....

I want to live with you ultimately..... tat is my plan for us... i hope you share my vision and hope we can work towards this common goal... be selfish... fight for your happiness... everything can be compromised... if you are worried about my mum... i will work out and strike a balance... She can't be with me all my life... i need to work out something for myself also... am i right? I cannot sacrifice my happiness also right? Need to strike a balance and everybody compromise... can be worked out one... i just need to know your stand.... and the word "let's go", so tat i know both you and i and headed in the same direction... i hope to hear it from you one day my love. this is the surest form of commitment i can have from you... it will be much more precious than a physical ring.... because it means you have trusted your future to me..

Although last night baby still didn't say make much comments or come to a stand, i think she didn't disagree with me when i voice my comments... i think so. So well... :) tat's good enough ba for now...

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We went to this macau-hongkong restaurant @ kovan for dinner today. Price was a little ex. About $8 for a bland bowl of noodles. I had 1 $8 plate of rice with pork chop and some skinny slices of veggies.. haha. The ice milk tea i had was lethal though, thick and powerful, shiok.

Well tomorrow is voting day == squeezy and crowded day at the polling centre. Hope to get it over and done with, want to go shopping with my baby..

Love Languages

The Five Love Languages

My primary love languages are probably
Acts of Service and Quality Time.

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Acts of Service:		9
Quality Time:		9
Physical Touch:		7
Words of Affirmation:		4
Receiving Gifts:		1

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Well who doesn't want to understand and speak in the same language as their partner right.....?