heart problem

do you ever have this physical feeling of your heart sinking to the bottom of where it is?

i used to think that this is juz a english description. but then it's not.

i felt it today. not juz today damn it. but it has been a long time since i had this feeling. and it's today.

the feeling so damn sucks. i felt my heart shrinking and hitting a rock bottom. only to have to breathe again and with every breath that i exhale, the heart sinks again.

GAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

i dun like this feeling :(

Be happy of the fact that you are breathing :)

To be able to breathe and live healthily, is worth rejoicing already.

was clearing my belongings from my office drawers today.

rummaged upon my inflatable pillow, which w as full of air. it was my reliable companion for many lunch hour snoozes. i brought it to the office probably 1-2 years ago. as i was releasing the air (with difficulty) from the pillow... it dawned upon me... what if one day i'm gone from the surface of this earth, and my inflatable pillow is discovered? would anyone care that within this pillow, contains my breath?

the person may not be around anymore... but his/her breath is still around... contained within this earth.... i dunno... juz a stupid idea that popped into my head at tat point of time.

i cherish any breath of air of my love ones. i wonder if any one of my love ones think this one too.