Rules of the game

I wonder what will make her commit to me?

Bank account? A slice of my heart? My finger?

Hmmm......... or maybe it's as simple as maintaining my room spick and span?

Maybe.....

I love you.

Close to you

Did i post this mtv clip before?



Some sweet memories that came to me:

We dare each other to bite each other's shoulders. Whenever she bites me, yes i feel the pain, but the smell of her hair and the warmth of her body so close by, the pain becomes secondary. I enjoyed those biting sessions we made to punish each other... hehe... coming to think of it... we were quite boliao to indulged in such childish games huh.. hehe... but it was so sweet... and maybe an excuse for each other to get close. :D

Destiny... it bring two pple with mutual attraction, together. But it's like finding a 5 cent coin in a metal scrapyard... i am so so so so damn lucky....

U know... i was looking through her friendster... and pple give her praises like helpful, caring...

But these are things i never told her.... so basic, but yet i never tell her before...

I failed.... i must be blind to not see this fact....

She helps me whenever i encounter probs at work... with tips... with real physical help.... etc...

Haiz... i must be boxed!!

I love her.... my piggy dear.... :*

Good the night... and it was a very good day with you as my company! :)

Wish the kk could be longer though.... heee... greedy la i know.

Prawn! Fishing!

Prawn Fishing!

Catch and then BBQ!

Lai ah lai ah!

Retired Aunt Agony

I just realised that it's been a long long time since anyone confided in me. I used to be the person lending a good ear to friends.. or whoever has happens to spill their problems to me... then i'll share my personal thoughts and we all leave satisfied. While counselling/comforting them at the same time, the conversations never fail to leave provoking thoughts in me.

But man.. it's been a long time. I kinda miss those days ya? Where pple will look for me for a purpose.. just to share their ideas.. their problems... their thoughts... where have they been? Kinda feel idle/redundant nowadays.... it's just work work work work and me me me me....

I used to strive to be a role model for those with problems to look up to... to lend them a helping hand... it is purposeful to guide those lost ones along... making sure they do not get lost again... Making them happy... seeing their probs resolved... seeing the smile on their face...
But zilch now.

What is my purpose now? In search...

Kawai!

Kawai kei cars!

Kei refers to the Japanese word for lightweight and this class of cars are limited to 660cc engines amongst other requirements to take advantage of special tax breaks in Japan.

2dr R1 and 4dr R2!

Only auto ma?

The Mitsibitshi i is auto... yep.

B went crab dinner with her friends just now! Yum yum!! They say she slim down again le.. kekee... she must be gleeeeaming inside!! :D

Love you baby :)

Glad you had a happy time catching up with your friends! :)

Yeah yeah!
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And finally i managed to drag my heavy ass downstairs for a jog just now! Yeah! Found a rather good running route near my house! At least for today! Not much pple, peaceful without being deserted, near schools and nice experience. Jogged for 30mins and it felt good man.

What actually triggered the urge to run, other than the early dismissal from class today, is because i climbed the stairs up to my unit, and actually felt good by the sweat and pant. Therefore while the adrenaline rush is still there, hesitated no more and changed into running gear, zoom, rolled down the stairs!

Geeky Spearwoman VS Drum Bunny!

YEeee Haaaaa!~
:D

a day in a monkey's life

Aunt msged mum to borrow a sum of money today, to which mum obliged. To which I thought mum would ask me to chip in as well. But no la, mum told me just for info only, and also to express her worries over this request. Scare that aunt got into some kind of problem or trouble loh.

She replied mum with a rather ambiguous answer, but mum didn't probe further and just lend it to her. Well i would have done the same too if the the same unclear answer was given to me.

I guess only someone desperate will turn to others for such 'humiliating' requests? Won't hesitate to help family... if family dun help family, then who will help? If family won't even help family, then how to expect others to help? :( Hope she is fine!!

I test test dear just now.. hehe.. wanna see her shock look when i attempt to borrow bucks from her. But silly me spoil the show by asking her via phone first... *box myself* Anyway dear gave a very politically correct answer lah.. not taking any sides.. ^_~

A money-taxing course i'm attending now... not on me... but on my company... felt unjustifiable for it!!

Gotta go out slightly earlier tomorrow...

Must give mum the tel and add of the tour agency later... gotta plan for a short getaway before i go aussie... in case mum gets upset again... :(

Quite alot of pimples have sprout up on the right side of my neck.. why!!? Left side ok leh... or is it chicken pox?? *_*

I displayed undesirable behaviour on the road just now again... and i slapped myself hard on the cheek after that as i always have... wtf... heart emotions always get the better of head!

Think i gotta learn to fly kite better.... yep yep.... gotta think about it... benefits me... benefits us... benefits our future.... may benefit at work too... oh wait a min, i think i fly kites well at all other areas except in matters of the heart.. haha. Think i always give too much le... must keep keep a bit for rainy days... so that things will always be special between us :) if everyday is christmas or birthday then no one will look forward to it le ya? Hehe... but dunno how leh... cannot keep surprises and cannot keep my big mouth shut... how to keep! how to keep for future use! Gaaah... think think think!

Eat until very full... had sakae just now... got 9 plates special ne! 9 colour plates for 9 dollars is it? And the rest of the bill at 9% discount.

Hmm.. btw... just a passing thought.. I seemed to be friendless for now... friends all seem to be so busy with life.... or is it me who close them out of my world? they call and i dun pick up their calls... well it takes 2 hands to clap.... i can be proactive and contact them! ok will msg some of them tomorrow to see wat they are doing... proactive! :)

let me see...
b..
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can only think of 1!! boohoo!!!!

I probably die lonely and wrinkled and all shrivelled... only to be found a few weeks later by some robbers who barged into the house, hoping to loot from a weak and helpless old lady! Only to find a stinko corpse!

Ok i digress.... again. Haiz.. why are adults such complex creatures.... haha!

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Dear have symptoms of falling sick... muaks..... no no baby... rem to drink your h2o + water cocktail.... and plenty of plain water after tat... tomorrow going to eat crab.. must brace up! One of your fav leh... ya?? :)

Hope you like the tee and hope it fits! :D
And the pinkie decal too.. heeeee.

I think i wanna improve my skills in flying kites... hiak hiak!

Tips 1 of 5

1. Reminisce about the good times that you had together.

Life is too short to spend time dwelling on the bad things.

Instead, turn it around and make the best out of the good times that you had together.
Re-visit a romantic vacation spot where you celebrated your anniversary.

Schedule regular dates and spend some time away from work, your house and your children.

Having some ‘alone’ time together will surely liven

My dear - mine mine mine!!

BB chided me and made me see things clearer by explaining patiently to me... i merely allow one car to pass and considered myself patient and can't wait to rush off without waiting for the car who has already almost half her car length blocking my path le :(

Sigh.... lucky me to have dear explain to me! Hold tight tight and never let go le!!

Shucks... i just sneezed and felt a sharp pain at my tail bone!

A Turtle's Life

Watched Discovery Channel just now...

Featuring a Hawksbill Turtle, swimming across a huge sea bed of Upside Down Jellyfish! Spectacular it was!! Then this hawksbill was feasting on squids along the way. Only that this scene didn't last long, it met a hungry and traumatised shark which attacked the turtle at its neck and *splash, blood was everywhere in the sea..... Didn't know that turtle falls prey to shark as well!! Goodness.

Free those sharks

A 2 metre long nurse shark is being kept in codominium Parc Palais. Kept in a tank with a length shorter than it is. The tank was just locate beside the swimming. And the torturous habitat was so small that the shark could not even turn around!!

At 2 metres, it is still not fully grown. And what's worse, there is not just one shark in the tank. There are TWO more black tip reek sharks in the already suffocating space.

Read the full story here.

Sign the petition or write to the management of the condo if you want to free them :(

Idle

Idling is the root to all depressions.

When an old person becomes idle, they have nothing do do, no where exercise their brain power, they'll suffer from amnesia?

When a person suffering from relationship or work problems starts to get idle, they dwell upon it, and possibly get tangled in the down-leading spiral.

Pretty much like a car huh? Idling for excessive period of time will cause them to require more frequent maintenance.. lol...

So, what are you waiting for? Get yourself occupied!! :D

Convinced that you're someone you're not?

It is easy to transform into someone you are not. To be transformed into a person that pple want you to be. If it's for the better, then bravo. If it's for the worse... then doom.

If all you hear are negative things about yourself, i believe even the angel will turn into a devil. It's like brainwashing.. alot of pple tell you this this this this bad stuff about yourself, even if you're not, sooner or later you will be convinced that you are actually this eeeeevil weevil.

Have some time to yourself everyday, remember your core, checked if you have not steer off course and away from your life objectives... remain on course, check.

Remain oriented!

zoom~

Run and Yum

Good run at bishan park just now. But yeah we were running in figures of 8 cos this particular park was too small. Might try the other park next time.

Sumptuous breakfast at cafe cartel! Good service (with a fee) and nice sausages they have!

Lesson for the week

Learnt:

You will not dwell on it if you dun have time to think about it.

You will not think about the stupid negative stuff if you preoccupy yourself with other things.

Load yourself with your other stuff la! Like your jap, your story books, your maple, your room, etc!

So..... stop acting stupid like a silly pumpkin! Gaah! Ok?? Ok!! Dun just sit down there and think of the boliao stuff... do something PRODUCTIVE!! UNDERSTAND!?

Erm... but i also wan bone bone once in a while :( it's motivation also ma ya...... to know that i'm not redundant... to know that i'm loved... to know that i'm appreciated... to know that i'm wanted... to know that what i'm doing is not wasted. Low self esteem needs to be boosted externally once in a while!! My own supply of cheerful energy to myself runs out of gas once in a while... need external help to boost it...

grr... i digressed again...

So anyway,these came to me while i was driving to fetch dear for dinner just now... we had the horny pizza @ pizza hut just now! Filling for 2 person. I didn't like the sauce, it tastes sweet! Dear didn't like the meat combi cos it's weird, ham + grilled chicken pieces is it?

Hope i can wake up in time tomorrow morning to fetch dear for the run :(
Target... 6am....

Stress...

Wait for mama to come home then I will sleep le!

Mum went to have dinner with her ex colleagues just now... she deserves to have good food and good company! Love you mum..

Heyhey!!

I'm happy!! And cheesy as well!!! *Burp*

Peck :)

Peck (:

makan time with b!

why does my tee smells of money? eee... haha...

Who are the pple who still love you despite your flaws?

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Lame or not?

I hope she do not find me lame for doing all those things... cos i dun feel the appreciation...

Questions

A minor dispute that causes a big upset?

Petty?
Or that person means too much to you?

Sting rays & talkative monkey

Tat's bad, sting rays have been killed with their tails chopped off. Though there were no evidence, it was suspected to be been caused by supporters ir Steve Irvin.

Boy i'm in a chatty mood tonight. Sometimes I talk too much... and she doesn't like. I too noisy le. So ji za! Jiji zaza!

Ok zip.

My bosom

A bosom is one in a million.

If you have the luck to find one in an ocean of pple, you should have no other demands :)

drama mama

I dun like Thomas Ong's character in the show

Exclusion... u know how that sucks? Whatever it is, still have to think for the group as a whole and not to exclude anyone. BOoboo!!

Empathised with how Terence's character felt. I would have switched the radio channel as well!

Analogy

Didn't even want to reply him when he commented on my driving skills. I mean what for? Who is he that i need to clarify myself? I dun even wanna lift my finger to key the keypad man.

The closer you are to a person, the more you want to talk to her to clarify things.

If you are not close to a person, even if he/she have some wrong perspective of you, you will also won't think of wasting your breath to correct him.

Fifteen

Omg!! 15!!!! The show that blew me away a few yrs back. Very realistic view on the lesser seen side of the society. The side that pple choose not to see, the side that pple pretended that it does not exist. Nobody wants to be a bad boy, ah beng. But instead of pulling them towards the sunshine, we cover them up, and bury them, deeper and deeper into the soil.

Once again.. another good show that i wish to share with dear. Too bad our society banned the show. They choose to totally bury this production into the earth's core, instead of shedding light on it. Bah.

Cut cut cut cut cut!!

Something to silence the monkey mind.. haha

Cut, a short film by our very own Royston Tan. A dig at the local censorship board. Way to go man :)

Bo brolly

Somewhat drenched by the remark... downpour.. maybe it was just me without an umbrella la.. haha... the hype caused by myself were all gone at that instance. But nonetheless it kept my morning very motivated and excited while planning how to deliver the news to her.

Views on equality from Brad

Zero

None... for the feel good factor.

Grrrr.... *knocks my head* wake up your idea!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm too greedy le... asking for too much....?

How come?!

How come i didn't blog about the day tat dear treat me to The Line for a sumptuous lunch buffet?!

My Dear part 2

To add on...

Baby... i just want you to be happy... always always always....

Though it's not my birthday, it's my wish for you.

I love you.


Yours,
Pork pork

My Dear

My babe's hatch day :)

Brought her to BakerzInn for dinner today! Gave her a tiny surprise, whereby the waitress presented her a cake without her prior knowledge and even before we have placed order.. hehe... Yeah! Love the magical moment of surprise in her eyes. Hope she felt surprised rather than shocked~!

What's a birthday without a cake right.. hehe. Too bad they didn't have candles! The lack of it made me forgot the birthday wish portion. I rem it only after we finished the cake. Hope baby made her wish and may it come true in near future.

Other than today's cake and birthday dinner, we went for a short getaway last weekend. Nice hotel room with a cosy looking yellow sofa. The price was a little steep, considering its not-very-convenient location though. I specially bought something for us to 'work on' during the day.. keke. Dear almost killed me for making her 'work' instead of lazing around! I bought a spherical jigsaw puzzle! Quite costly, but worth the fun, and worth the meaning behind == the both of us building something difficult/unknown from nothing, to completion! It's like building a home. As long as we cooperate and rough it out hand in hand, we can make things work out.

After a few aching hours at the puzzle, we decide to break for dinner, cos it was then close to 7pm. Took a walk to Greak World and had dinner at the foodcourt. Dear had meehoon goreng and i had chicken bryani. Next we went marketing at cold storage and walked back. Don't these activities seems homely? Sweet...

And then, part 2 of puzzle fixing. It was really satisfying every single time we hear the 'click' sound when the pieces fit each other. It's very much like managing a relationship eh? When you are going through a rough patch, but you persevere and try to find the missing piece, and then you succeed after some hard work, and 'click'! Can fit!! Bingo!! So shiok the feeling! Every satisfying experience comes after hard work, no short cut. You can go via the short cut, but you'll never feel the satisfaction. It's pretty much like a run eh? A marathon. Oh... there i go go.. digress again.

So when me and dear piece our portions together... it felt good... we made it work. We built the ball ball. Yes just the two of us.

Then it was pom pom time! Me first! I gained dear's sympathy again when i complained of the cold when i stepped out of the bathroom. Gained hughugs! Kekeke. Sometimes i felt that i was too evil... yeah... maybe too much.... like a sex predator.. and dear being the poor sheep... think i must stop acting so hungry... poor dear..

Then it was orr orr time! Before dear sleep, she went for a toilet break, and i quickly jumped at the chance to go dig out the present from my going-to-explode-anytime bag! Hid the parcel under the blanket. Then when dear returned from the loo, Tadaa!!!

Gave dear a nike running tee and a small wallet. Running tee looked v good on dear... it's blue.. but has lots of holes! But luckily can't really see through! Pass QC.. haa. The small wallet wasn't such a good idea though. Dear feedbacked that the card slots were too narrow le. Can't fit as many cards as the number of slots allow. So lousy... :( GRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Though dear say never mind, i felt rather lousy... knew that she tried me make me feel better and i also agreed that this time she picked her own gift to substitute this one!! I appreciate my honest feedback!!

We only went to sleep at about 2am.. after some chatting and snuggling in bed. It was really nice to hug darling to sleep... the closeness is uncomparable to anything else. I dunno why everytime i feel this way when we hug, tears will just trickle from my eyes. I can't quite explain why this happens. Is it because I cherish it alot each time this happens? Dunno when it will come again? Scare to lose it? Tat's why each time feel so blessed and touched? Maybe ba. Each time i hug her, i somehow have this very cynical feeling in me.. when u put something very close to your heart, the last thing you want is to lose it. And when the tears roll down, the very thing i want to do at that moment is to hug her even closer and she reciprocates. So nice. Unsubstitutable. Ever.

Very sorry i didn't msg her ON the DOT last night... Hmmmph!!! Slapped myself when i woke up this morning :(((((((((((((((((

May my piggy enjoy life to the fullest, be healthy, happy and have ample reasons to smile every single day in her life.. which i will strive hard to contribute to the reasons of her happiness..

well it feels good to hear her address me somehow... bb... porky... or watever... :)

Her love for animals

As promised to bb,

Channel News Asia's report on our zoo's polar bear (not for any longer)

Sheba: 28 yrs old female bear (b about the same as u leh~~)
Inuka: 16 yrs old male bear

Detailed Report (with photo evidence) by Animal Concerns Research & Education Society (ACRES)

In fact they have compiled video evidences of the bears showing signs of distress, you can download the video here or from ACRES's main page

Hey they have a very interesting list of volunteering assignments... hmmm.... Driver... yeah sounds good with van provided! Undercover... Oooohh... exciting~

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Tragedy in the black and white world.

News of the crush from National Geographic News.

It was said that after she found out that her cub died, she was found cradling the dead body in her arms and stroking it, at the same time wiping tears from her eyes using the back of her hands. Can't manage to find the video footage of it yet, apparently this video was shown on tv news.

BKT

Kinda noble of Brangelina to sacrifice their freedom for the equality of everyone? Kinda cool of them...

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Kinda like what Jer said about relationship being a lifelong "curriculum" which takes a lifetime to master and perfect the art of handling with it.

Which to me, felt like Bak Kut Teh, the longer you brew the stock, the more favour it has, the more savoury it becomes, the more tender the bak kut. (And yes I've satisfied my craving for BKT le... thanks to baby who brought me to the Tiong Bahru outlet. Nice nice!)

Everything takes time. Shortcuts do not lead you anywhere. Everyone needs to fall down at some point of time and learns from mistakes (hopefully) in order to perfect the art of loving, giving, sharing, and cooking bak kut teh :)

No one can tear the both of you apart, other than yourselves.

Imagine me and you

Yeah it's coming!!!

21 Sep!!

Affection! Muak muaks!

Do you have a problem with showing affections?

Read on... interesting posts from these ladies!

I say "i love you"s to my mum and i hug her too! Though i am guilty of doing it lesser lately :(

Go ahead, show your appreciation in words or deliberate actions like hugging her or holding her hands, etc. Don't just secretly appreciate lah... that is so subtle! A gong gong person will never be able to realise the appreciation!

The bottom line is, dun live to regret the things you did not do, while you still have the chance to do it. Reading this topic made me realise how so many pple regretted not doing certain things, because they no longer have the chance to... learn from them...

F&F

Was very tired just now, walking around in town, alone.

Until bb called... all the tiredness were gone at that instance.. hehehe. I'm such a sucker....

Anyway.. just had hor fun for dinner *BURp!! So full!! and so Fat!! Hahaha F&F!!
Very happy!! Fruitful day today!!! and oh!! it's thursday le!! HAhaha!!! Tomorrow is lovely FRIDAY!!

Saturday will be spent with BB, Sunday will be dedicated to Mama!

Yeah!! I'm a happy girl!! I'm such a lucky girl in bliss and in love!!!! Thank you so much.......

Love is not discriminating

If only can attend this double bill! But will b too rushed for b and me... hope the shows will get screened here in future...

Parking... beware!

如果还能选择爱的对象
你会怎么想
我们是否会跟现在一样
相爱得如此顽固而坚强
我的爱没有不同
我的心也不难懂
只期待一个简简单单的感动

Song by a china artiste, Qiao Qiao.... bravo!

Love is not discriminating, love is equal, love is not biased, regardless of race, religion and gender.

Watch the vid!

We went jogging.. then went shopping centre shop for pillow, to no avail.

Jer and Roy

Feeling very touched for what they are going through now... the turmoils of a long distance relationship and to overcome this particular hurdle and be happy again and live happily ever after.

Love can't be forced. Neither can it be stopped once it gets started. This is the power of love.

So he's gonna visit him in aussie... haiz... how romantic... how magical...

I always believed that love can overcome anything and everything, as long as you have faith in love. Yes it can.

It's such an amazing thing in life.. to love.. to be loved.

A thoughtful quote

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do.
So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails.

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails.

Explore. Dream. Discover.

- Mark Twain

A thoughtful quote

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do.
So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails.

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails.

Explore. Dream. Discover.

- Mark Twain

Have You Ever

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night

Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand

Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes

Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

What do I gotta do to get to you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how
I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
Cuz baby I can't sleep
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Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you wanna cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Missing you again

Feeling cranky these days...

of the good kind i suppose...

Just the urge to hasten things a little that kind of feeling... u know?

To make her mine..

The hollowness that suddenly strikes you in the middle of the night? A too familiar uncomfortable feeling that oftens ends up in puddles of tears... only she holds the cure to it...

A very nice song...

If I lay here, If I just lay here, Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know, How to say, How I feel

Those three words, Are said too much, They're not enough

If I lay here, If I just lay here, Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Hope to know her priorities?

http://dramon1316.blogspot.com/2006/05/love-languages.html

Didn't manage to find out hers previously cos she always to lazy with words!! Yesterday's tv show reminded me again.. hopefully... she gets the hint! :D

I wanna wash car, B wanna go running.. hmmm.. how best to fuse ne?

My babe

Did I mention that dear gave me this meaningful book and a very thoughtful gift of a leather coin purse? Last friday was it? The book was the last on the shelf, and dear took half day off (dunno whether it is specially for this purpose) to buy it from borders. She took the train there, knowing that she'll be unsure of the route and parking.. thanks dear....... sigh... touched....

And the coin purse.. hehe. dear says my original one too obiang le... like aunty... keke.. thus she bought me this classier looking one, a sleek black leather one.

Then dear offered to come my house that day after work, i was thinking why she suddenly ask to come my house ne.. hehe... yuan lai ru ci... muuuakz..... to give me the surprise gifts.... hug hug......

2yrs more to the big day.... persevere......

Oh.. today we went palawan beach chill out, and had lunch at the foodcourt. Seated under the hot sun.. it was woah... like a 2nd shower at sentosa.. haha.