Spilling emotions

She exudes such overwhelming charm yet she doesn't know it. Tat's the beauty of her.... :)
Tat's what i like of her... How i will miss those round deep set eyes when i go away for the month.... sigh.... the hugs, the hand and the lips.... and most important... just her presence....

Browsing through our pics... the first pic we ever took together was in 22 Nov 2003... back in office. How fate brought us together and made me realise a gem in her over time. Standing beside each other in the picture, never did i thought that she would be my dearest today. We were like acquintance back then. Occassional chats, jokes, but never the opened heart to heart kind of talk, not the deep in depth kind of talk.

Not until a common 'enemy' brought us united together...

24 Apr 2004, we had a function at Chevron... think i start to notice her... she seems interesting enough... with her cold jokes and witty sacarstic funny comments... this girl has got some quirks in her :)

15 may 2005, we had a breakfast outing... i notice i had taken a picture of her secretly... not knowing why... is it the subconscious liking of her ticking in me?

8 Aug 2005, a big day for us... followed by holiday. Something in me is telling me tat.... i like her.... as a friend? or something more....? I wan us to be more than friends...?

28 Aug 2005, an office outing... till date we have had numerous outings and many pictures taken together. I never had such a wonderful time at work until then. Didn't know that I so look forward to going to work. I woke up promptly and eagerly to go to work each morning...

I start to watch out for the time i go to work...
Making sure it's about the same time i can 'bump' into her coincidentally on the roads... occassionally deliberately stopping over by the bus stop to 'coincide' with her..
I start to recognise her car model on the roads... making sure not to miss her car...
I start to recognise her car headlight, in case i missed her car at night...
I start to 'work' late
I start to make excuse so that i can travel the same route home as her...
I start to jog often... to match up with her exercise schedule...
I start to create excuse for us to go out together

I love the holiday picture of us and mm... it's a great chance for us to get this close in picture.... it looks very nice... and it portrays a very happy moment.... a happy.... family........

I know that under your sacarstic remarks and ganging up of others to 'bully' me, you are always watching out for me.... for fear of me getting sabotaged too much...

Once i noticed you resting your head on the table at the internet terminal, probably tired... your lips were resting on your hands. And you were making a simulated act of 'kissing' your hands. How aching it was for me to see your tired self and also seeing that the receiving end of the kisses wasn't me. Tat scene stayed with me till now... i will always keep this memory in me. From nothing till having you now, i want to rem the tough times when i dun have you..... so that i will always be reminded to hold you close and treasure you....

I will never forget the tough times i will be facing this coming month..... for these are the experiences that will make me treasure you more in our future together.... you make up the other half of our happy family, baby....